Metamorphosis

Endless time flies
While butterflies hatch from
cocoons ruining trees of beauty

Midnight wandering mind

Can't sleep. Too much on my mind.
Can't write. Don't know how to creatively express
what I am feeling and thinking.
Too much for words. Tears express my feelings,
but nothing can express my thoughts.
Yet there is only one thing that can
stop my mind, and that is me.
I need to slow down. Calm my mind and breathe.
But my heart is saddened
by all the pain
that my family is in.
Feeling helpless is not
an easy thing for me.
The one who always tries
to play the protector.
But this, this is not easy.
Terminal is terminal.
No matter how you sugar coat it
or IV drip it into you.
So for now sleepless nights.
Long days, and an unpleasant journey.
Will wonders never cease?

FUCK CANCER

FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!

"Good people loose.
Good people are chickens waiting to be plucked.
They're lower to the ground.
Much easier to be stepped on
and broken and stolen from." - Lou - from Rescue Me

That is all for now!

Ramblings

5-26-09 - In the Car

Some of the best
days I've had,
was when I turned the
pages of the past
and left them behind.
No fast forward,
no rewind. Books on tape
have not ruined
my ability to turn pages.
Stories are to be told.
Both memories new and old.
But love is a dual
not to be played
by those thought a fool.

A New Around the Way Girl (Tribute to LL)

So I had the L.L. Cool J song "Around the Way Girl" in me head the other day in the shower. So I thought of a new version (very short) while in the shower, but to the music of L.L.'s song.


I want a shorty
to walk by my side.
Locked arm and arm,
together in beat and in stride.
A little cutie who's beauty
is beyond skin deep..
So much beauty, I almost weep.
As she approaches everything
with a smile,
so much so it picks me up once and a while.
That is why I must say, your smile is the sunshine,
but it's you that brightens up my day.

JSN

Twinkle

Reading messages in constellations
twinkling ideas of hope
glimmering down upon us.
There, all the answers
are for the taking.

External Hard Drive Needed (incomplete)

There is so much going on in this coconut I call my head, that I really need an external hard drive to download my brain into and start fresh with a new operating system.

I've drawn sketches
of you in my mind.
Sketches I've gone
over a million times.
Each new pencil mark
on my mental canvas
comes out different
than before.
But the beauty
is always the same.