Gray Haired Man

Here is my smile

my fake window
to my soul.
Happiness is a state
of mind. A state,
I seldom ever find.
Joy in spirit 
is not joy in heart.

Endless nights
without much sleep 
leads to years taken
off of lives
not yet lived.
Knock, knock, knock,
it's Father Time.
No more napping
like a cat
The bear
no longer hibernates
Wide-eyed and bushy-tailed
once more. Finally alert
to the real me.
The power slowly returns
but at what cost?